Figuring out my life. How to balance eternal problems. Posture. Relationship to sin. Self vs. self denial. Ethics. Moral landscape. How to act. How to navigate. How to express properly. If you neglect something you know you shouldn’t, it will cause negative consequences to arise in unexpected ways. Which will add to the chaos of your life. No more dead ends. My life is a path. And it will be full. My baseline will be full. And that’s better overall. I want to be the most careful, articulate, expressive version of myself. And also healthy. I desire to be the most articulate, expressive, and healthy I can be. Don’t do anything that makes you less responsible. Careful, articulate, and healthy.
I usually go to my journal to self-reflect and flesh out my most morally challenging intuitions.
When I wrote this, I was thinking about my current actions and decisions and how they were affecting my future self.
At the time, I was engaging in some un-sustainable behaviors. It made sense for me to write out exactly what I wanted for my life and reverse engineer from there.
“Don’t do anything that makes you less responsible.”
I was thinking about the word “responsible” practically — as in the ability to respond.
When I’m reclusive, I am not able to respond. When I’m under the influence, I’m unable to respond to a call from family or friends. When I’m lazy, I’m can’t properly respond to my inclination to workout.
Responsibility is a very good sign of the quality of one’s life.
What would it mean to be articulate, expressive, and healthy?
It would mean saying exactly and preciscely what I believe to be true (even in the face of criticism or conflict).
It would mean to live authentically, to be willing to share what I’m experiencing and tell others about the detail of my doctrine.
It would mean to take care of myself out of responsibility for myself.