I need, I need, I need. No. I am. I already have what it takes. I am okay with what’s already been granted. I am okay with my current mindset and frame. My desire to feel something more stems from a mindset of scarcity. I don’t have enough means I am dissatisfied with what I currently am. And that’s problematic at a certain level. We need to strive and progress, yes, but filling or patching a negative feeling with something that is harmful in another way is worse. More damage. Acceptance and self-denial. The less I deny myself, the more I deny myself. It’s running rather than confronting. It’s searching without finding. It’s needing without want. I am okay. I have everything. I am enough and I don’t need to feel okay. I am okay. And when I am not okay, I can handle that, too. Because if I face that and deny what I know hurts in the long, I can actually become more. And be more freely.

Bored, uneducated, homeless — em dashes are my specialty. I write what I see, think, and feel. That’s it.