I Was Happy, Content, and Depressed But It’s Okay

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2/3/2019 (9:54pm)

Thinking Vs. Reality

In this story, I’ve written a lot of “I thought” and “I feels.” We live in our heads everyday. I constantly find myself comparing and contrasting my current situation to where I think I’m supposed to be. Or where I’ve wrongly been.

“When you’re thinking negatively about yourself and feeling insecure, ask yourself if there’s evidence to support it.”

Basically, am I basing my self-worth entirely on how I think and feel? Or, am I looking at my situation realistically with evidence provided from the past?

2/20/2019 (12:34am)

Whatever you’re feeling right now, it won’t last forever. So don’t get too caught up about it. Accept it and act.

That sounds so cliche, but, as I reflect on my journal, that’s the theme I find time and time again. So often, everything feels set in stone. I convince myself “this is how its going to be forever for the rest of my life and I was always have to deal with this problem.” And that’s simply not the case. People have the ability to update. Even when we feel out of order holistically, when we are fighting against ourselves, we are capable of growth and change.

5/9/2019 (5:19pm)

Bored, uneducated, homeless — em dashes are my specialty. I write what I see, think, and feel. That’s it.

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