Last night I got on Twitter and regret it instantly. Lately, I haven’t been on social media much anymore. Twitter’s the only social app I have at the moment and it stays on my iPad only, so I use it less. Still, it impacts my mood and changes the way I view the world around me every time I look at it.
Now I like Twitter — to an extent. Information, news, pop culture. Those are all fine and good.
What I don’t like is slew of BS I have to sift through in order to see the things I actually want to see. Most of the “news” that lands of my feed is full of hatred, pandering, and immorality. Everything seems dumbed down. All of my friends are talking to themselves (myself included). Nothing about social media feels natural, in fact, it feels inhuman.
Social media makes me feel dumb, stupid, and worthless.
I do my best to curate my feed with good, productive, meaningful talk — but that has its limitations.
Twitter has a feature where you see what someone else liked. So because some other, random person liked a tweet, you’re now susceptible to it. I’ve told the company numerous times “I don’t like this tweet.”
It doesn’t work.
I just do not care about the MEANINGLESS things put online. We’re living in ultimate-information-overload-times. Every last slant or opinion gets announced as breaking, “current” news even if it doesn’t amount to anything. Seriously. I’m over it. I’m 23 years old, I don’t need to be amused like a damn child with low-level entertainment and corrupt thinking. I don’t need to see another awful/degrading comment. I don’t need to see another update about the Dodgers. I don’t need to see another bro get knocked out at the night club. I just don’t need these things in my life — but it’s so addicting.
I’m really just trying to not allow this stuff to creep in, occupy, and ruin my mental footing anymore.
100% aware I’m on my high horse.
I know I probably sound really arrogant and annoying, but, for whatever reason, social media really rubs me the wrong way; it makes me feel insignificant and irrelevant. Maybe I’m weird and I’m the only one who feels this way. Psychologically though, it does far more harm than good. I just need to accept it’s not beneficial for me or my mental health in any way.
Still, it shocks me how deceiving social media is as a whole.
From the outside, social media appears to be an awesome party where all your best friends and favorite stars are hanging out, having a great time. Then you walk in and someone launches a pile of shit in your face — nobody’s having a real conversation. Everyone’s stroking their ego in the mirror. Half the people are talking to the wall or watching everyone else. It’s one big, stupid party that does nothing besides lower your self-esteem and social aptitude.
The stuff really does jack me up. It makes me sad..
I worry about my generation and how this new, strange social phenomenon alters our ability to think, communicate, reason, and see the world in a positive light.
I guess my hope is that we can break past this one day.