Writing is not really like talking, but it’s a lot like thinking.

Thinking is random.

If you think about it, your mind never really stops coming up with new ideas and decisions and judgments. Never. Stops. Which is weird and we don’t really seem to consider that as much as we probably should.

I think ideas are important.

Writing feels like work sometimes. It’s uncomfortable to sit down and just let your thoughts flop onto the page. I mean come on, that just sounds wrong. Written word forces you to actually consider what you’re thinking and if it’s even important. Do my thoughts have meaning? Well, there’s only one way to find out: share them with the universe. That’s why writing online is so dope and inspiring. It gives power to thought. To feelings. To ideas.

I think trying to write for other people is whack.

I should care less about who reads what I write. I struggle with making my writing too big. Like it’s a production. But it’s just words. And thoughts. What are thoughts anyway? They’re infinite, always happening, and constantly changing. Writing tests the validity of what you’re thinking and feeling. When put to use, you can come up with a lot more than you realize. When it’s quiet, it’s importnat.

Prayer is important.

I want to use Medium everyday in 2020. Like write once a day. Publish once a day. Even if it’s for free, because ideas are free. Trying to make writing so big is counterproductive.

Just being is probably better and writing puts you there.

I think about writing like a job, something I have to do, but I don’t. It’s actually an opportunity to work out my mind. To just be. Maybe even an opportunity to glorify God.

I would like to write about God. Possibly share some lessons I’ve learned from becoming a Christian this year.

^ That there is me trying to make my writing grandiose. I just thought of a finished story when in reality it’s just my thinking and what I believe. It’s just thought and words. Recording them feels like tying yourself to them permanently. But ideas are completely free. They always change and are always happening every second, we can’t stop our brain from thinking. That’s why meditation is a thing. The whole purpose is to turn your thoughts off and do nothing and just breath and be. And it’s freaking hard.

It would be cool if there was a secret society where everyone just said exactly what they were thinking.

Can you imagine? How awesome and terrible that would be. All of our social constructs would fall away and we’d pragmatically walk around gravitating towards people we don’t hate. Nobody would have to question or wonder about people. They could just look at someone in the eye and directly know what their brain was doing. You know, our minds are always awake. Always conscious — even when we sleep. Dreams are wild, really, if you think about it.

Writing is really a direct connection to the brain. A lot of times, our minds play games on us. Especially in the presence of other people.

Writing is a good way to share ideas and how we think. Sometimes I try to curate my writing too much. I overthink it. As if it defies me. Like it has to be perfect and make the most sense.

Ideas are just like words and thoughts. They just happen.

Writing forces you to think.

Space is good for writing. I think if we just put out ideas more we could be happier more. But just being is hard. There doesn’t always need to be some grand conclusion to writing.

Bored, uneducated, homeless — em dashes are my specialty. I write what I see, think, and feel. That’s it.